Tuesday, June 19, 2007

Icecream Cake

At work, I have been having hectic weeks for past couple of months because of the carzy deadlines to meet. As an appreciation of our efforts, the HR is treating us with icecream cake.

This sent be down my memory lane. Since a kid, I was always fond of icecream and cakes. Now, they have come up with this new delicacy where you can enjoy both at the same time. Thinking of childhood, I can still remember and relive some of the moments as if they happened recently. I can even think what I was thinking on one day doing something when I was much much younger. It is as if I am rewinding a video tape and watching again. Only in this case, it is my mind.

One of my dreams was to fly a plane and travel around the world. Also I remember I used to be afraid of dark. I would dream that I would be in Delhi till eve and as soon sun starts setting, I would fly to London,NY. This way I would always be in a place where it is bright and sunny and never would encounter night . Funny, I never thought when I would sleep.

Do you realise that dreams are always about doing some stuff. I actually have never dreamed about resting. Hmm. interesting.

Friday, June 15, 2007

A whole new world!

Humanity. A small word but makes a whole world of difference. Even though we are humans - homo sapiens, humanity does not seem to be our first nature. We were definitely born with it. Kids are in the purest human form. I guess as we grow, we understand the need to survive , to excel and to outgrow each other.

One day, I had to take my 6 month old baby to his pediatrcian checkup. My elder daughter , Aruna was then 3.5 yrs old. She accompanied me to the doc's visit. The doc checked his ears and in the process squashed it a bit. Droplets of blood fell on my hands. My hands froze seeing the blood from my little baby's ears. The doc assured that it would stop and asked me to call next day morning in case things worsen. As if things were not worse enough. Aruna looked little confused. She knew we go to doctor when we get hurt. This is the first time we went to the doctor and got hurt. I spoke to her calmly and softly that her baby brother would be fine and his ears would heal soon. Infact, I was re-assuring myself more than convincing her. I drove back home with the kids, feeling miserable. I could not figure out how my baby was feeling. He slept on the way back home. The only thing I wanted at that point was that his ears should be fine. When we reached back home, Aruna picked up the phone. She loves phones and I have a big challenge to keep her away from our home phone or my cellphone. But right now, I was too exhausted(more emotionally than physically) to fight her for not using the phone. She dialed some random no. and says "Hello, God Ganesha, please take the bo-bo away from my baby's ears!".

I stood there speechless.

"The fact that we have babies born everyday assures that God has not lost hope on earth"

Lingering to past...

I want to hold on
Even though I know all is gone

I would like to turn back time
To create a past that I would not whine

Things are not wrong now
Just my mind feels I came here how?

Should I stop listening to myself
And make people happy about themselves?

Why do I try hard to make things right
Even though I know I would never win the fight

Wednesday, June 6, 2007

Thoughts...

Thoughts created by me
Weaves a world around me

A conversation, a sentence, a word
World is now upside down

I want to be somewhere else
To be away from my own self

People do not think what you feel
Why doesn't someone says something nice for me to heal

Maybe I should not be that sensitive
Afterall, everyone has something positive.